I understand why Sibz has locked her diary you know. I do understand finally. I feel so restricted now, I can't write all of my feelings on this thing otherwise I'm just going to offend somebody, or hurt somebody, or tell a secreet that I wasn't supposed to tell. It's all so complicated. And yet I think it's better this way.

I'm feeling stronger than I ever have before.

The tea party is tomorrow.

Don't think I've mentioned the tea party in here yet. We're having an Alice in Wonderland themed Mad Hatters tea party for Ryan and my "twin birthday" celebration. There shall be two tea pots, one with a label saying, "Real Tea" the other with a label saying, "Unreal Tea" the one that says real tea is the one that has the magical cigarettes in though.